I’ve been listening to Kanye West’s much anticipated new album Yeezus. It’s a medley of several genres – electro, punk, rock and of course hop hop. West is angry, real angry and this is surely his darkest and most abrasive album so far. Tracks such as ”New Slaves,” “Black Skinhead” and “Blood on the Leaves” address issues of race. The more I listen to it, the more I appreciate it. No matter if you like it or not, this album cannot and will not be ignored. Meanwhile here’s my favourite West song, this is the track that gets me through my darkest hours. When ever things get hard I put this on and remind myself that what does not kill me can only make me stronger. – Makes me harder, better, faster, stronger! -
There’s much talk of love and relationships here on the blog at the moment. Perhaps it’s because I’m re-watching SATC, season after season. Perhaps it’s because I am in love when I spent a year thinking I would never feel this way ever again, perhaps it’s because I’ve spent that year studying all my previous relationships and those of my friends. Perhaps it’s because love is really what it’s all about and I can’t think of anything better to talk about. I’m walking around repeating these words like a mantra, it’s going to be my life mantra from now on:
“I choose to love people, not to judge them. I want to experience them as they are, not as I want them to be. I want to grow with them allowing each new moment to tell its own story rather than perceive it as a product of our past. I don’t want us to spend our lives thinking about life, changes and celebration. Rather I want us to spend our lives celebrating, living and changing. You and me, together, in love.”
I’m counting down to my lunch hour to rush to & Other Stories to check out all these items that are all on sale. Question is do I really need yet another LBD? The purple shoes remind me of that of Malene Birger ones from SS12, I have those in green and could really do with a purple version.
Came across this image this morning and had to share it with you. A simple truth, love is kind or at least it is meant to be, we all try for it to be or? We have all hurt someone we love and tell me what’s more painful than watching any human you love in pain, be it a friend, a partner or our parents. For most of us this hurting is done unconsciously and quickly leads to regret and remorse. It’s important to be aware of those actions so that we can change the pattern. Little comments we pass, promises we fail to keep, small details we fail to notice. But then there are those that consciously hurt their loved ones over and over again, small actions which leads to big pain. Is that love? Does love hurt? I guess we all have our own definition of love and the rules that apply to that love. I’m not getting any wiser here observing or reflecting on my own relationships or that of those around me. Perhaps it’s not meant to make sense, perhaps we are just meant to go with the flow and do the best that we can.
So my 12 days off work has flown by, yet this is the first holiday I’ve had where I haven’t done much at all. I decided to stay in London for once which has been nice, especially during the first few sunny days. I’ve visited Holland Park every single day which has got my friends concerned, they can’t understand these daily visits and probably find them a little compulsive. The park calms me and the strolls are part of my daily exercise. What I missed in London which made me terribly unhappy before was being far away from nature, then I realized I had this gorgeous park just 10 min walk from my place. It’s so different from Hyde Park, much nicer if you ask me. Plus it’s really special to me because my love introduced it to me, some days we go together, other days I go alone.
Besides the daily park visits and spending time with him, I’ve spent times with my girls and Adrian of course. The photo above is taken last week when me, Charlotte and Lavenna visited The Box, that’s a night I will never forget. And today…well today was a very significant day, an eye opener in many ways….all in the right direction. Goodnight my lovelies, wishing you a wonderful new week. x
Good morning lovers, just wanted to wish you a wonderful Friday and great weekend ahead. It’s a brand new day, a fresh start. Every day could be as long as you make up your mind for it to be. A day to let go of bad habits, bad energy, negative people in your life who don’t value who you are, a day to embrace love and those who put a smile on your face. Let’s make today real special, what do you say? For me today is a very important day, truly a new start in many ways. Today is the day my darling friend Andy is holding his “I beat Cancer” party. He is my source of inspiration and strength. I love you my friend, you did it, we did it! I can’t wait to celebrate your precious life later today.
It’s one of those days when you can’t do anything but reflect on everything around you. The weather is so moody that everyone’s hiding inside. I’m watching one SATC episode after the other and discussing relationships with friends. A girlfriend of mine was telling me of how this guy she has been seeing suddenly burst out that he doesn’t like it when she wears red lipstick or high heels and prefers her natural. Now my friend loves dressing up just as much as she can walk around very casual, either way she always makes sure to look classy. I’m guessing this little comment is only the beginning to a long list of changes he will be handing her. I advised her to be firm and tell him that this is who she is, she isn’t trying to be anyone else. That is how she represents herself to the world and some days she might feel or want to look sexy and other days very casual. This is the person he fell in love with so how come he wants to change her now? The most important thing in any relationship is that we stay true to ourselves, that we don’t change who we are for anyone and that we never try to change someone we love. Of course one has to adjust to their partner, any relationship is about give and take and meeting halfway but there’s a big difference between trying to be on time for your partner or more understanding of their needs then actually starting to change what you are all about. Isn’t it sad that many of us fall in love with the lively and wild side of someone, then try to change them out of fear of losing them, and then end up living with a shadow of the person we once knew and loved. Ultimately this will make both partner unhappy….so the love and relationship will be lost either way. I guess Robert Brault couldn’t be more right, what we find in a soulmate is not something wild to tame but something wild to run with. What are your thoughts?
“The Island of Great Britain is populated by more than 62 million fascinating individuals who all behave like they own the sidewalk. But lately it seemed as if the entire island or at least the capital of London had been magically reduced to only two people… us. Four-hour conversations flies by in the space of fifteen minutes, and a few days apart feels like weeks. I realised that Einstein’s law of relativity would have to be amended to include a special set of rules, those to explain the peculiar effects of infatuation.”
Ok so I didn’t write that. I bet some of you recognise where it’s from, yes that’s right: SATC S1E07 opening scene, Carrie and Mr. Big. Watching that episode I realised that I’m there in Carrie’s shoes. I’m committing the cardinal sin… I’ve forsaken my girlfriends (and Adrian) for my new boyfriend and surely I will have to face the tribunal soon. But I can’t think of that right now, all I can think about is his gorgeous skin, those green eyes and that smile, oh that smile!